6th Death Anniversary

Six years have never felt so long before
Because time without you crawls at a snail’s pace
25 years I spent with you seem too short
Compared to these six that’ve been void of your grace

Seasons come and go plenty
And so do days and nights
But life without you seems perpetually dark
Like a closed room with no lights

People say I’ll eventually move on
But six years haven’t affected any change
The healing has stopped, wounds still open
And emptiness that still feels strange

I know six will be seven, and seven will be eight
But the pain won’t stop despite the passing years
Your memories only get deeper with time
And I move ahead with a face full of dried tears
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Dying. It’s not like moving out of a country, or leaving a job, or ending a relationship.
It’s abrupt. It has no closure.

No one plans on going to a hospital and not returning back home. And although we keep convincing ourselves to believe everything happens for the best, we can never truly accept it.

And deep down we keep feeling that void every year, every day, every second.

I deeply miss your presence in my life ma, not just today, on your 6th death anniversary, or on your birthdays and such, but on every single day.

I could write these words everyday, but I know it’ll break me, and probably hurt you too, so I try to keep up with the world and focus on doing things that would make you happy.

But the moments of my life I’ve spent with you will always stay with me, till I breathe my last and finally see you again.